I got to involved in gay stuff now im confused?

to make a quick story short I am 22 and I got close to these gay guys. We started having sex sessions once a week. I was doing some stuff with like 10 guys. I have been doing this for 2 months and I am beginning to realize I am gay. I never had sex with a women before and now this man I met at the session wants to be my boyfriend. I want to say yes, but I don't. I enjoyed what I did. But I never had sex with any women. This also is gonna ruin my rep if people find out im sleeping with men. But I can't help it. I like c o c k, i like their butts and figure. We even kiss and drink a lot. I can feel it closing in on me. I can't even be gay. oh my god. I know I had sex with many guys. But can I call it male to male bonding instead. I can't believe myself. I am throwing a hissy fit over something I did like a whiny 5 year old. I find this guy attractive...but again not gay, male bonding